A letter from January 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey, it's you again. Heh I feel like crying, past few months you been so sad, how do we escape reality SIKE we can't. Mann, I feel like this whole life is suffocating. we were really born to deal with this huh? childhood traumas and other follows. idkk girl, school has been tough too. I don't even know if it's for me. but I don't know what is. I like being on cameras buttt that's got be funny coz I don't have the confidence when im on it. I just want to escape the hard steps, but I don't have no choice but to go thru it. you have so much plans. ur business, traveling EVERYTHING! I hope when you get this ur in a different situation, environment. I hope ur doing good. please stop being sad. please follow what you really want. EXPLORE YOURSELF, stop looking for love out there, its starts within you. youth is gonna pass by smoothly MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT. stop being sad. I hope by this time, you'll always have something to look forward on to. I hope by this time, your tears are for happy moments only now. no more sad crying, no more sad thoughts, no more thinking of negativity. Now, Are you happy?

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Hey,

I am so sorry you went through this, I know how much **** you were through and how messed up it all was. You were just 20 years old,...

Be to tobua 12.
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Ew hlndea ydas egt tno c'atn ear sda hreet sitll ghoetnism tub i erhew ti's. 'tis sutj sad ot ta m,teis eb ew y?kao rea muanh akoy.
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Yte we ,ubt ykoa rae i rouy ma wasnre ein,otusq wno to ahp?yp not. Yas toehs hope dsw,ro aypph tge i ot ma "i i nsoo fnllyia. ".
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Rsue ew die,s yb rou eahv aws tish gdo i hebind all ma he. Uorthhg srue esogsdon iapn be teh hrewe ot lla pcela eth a nwet iedrietnroc eth of nda ear made we ot brign ew uedpsops atth su ot was epacl he to. Nad oru aithf so, him set'l keep ugtnpit itno tstur.
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Nwo ntkah htat eb 02 uoy own all reay yuo you hte ansseds dol now orf egon orf hnkat ahtt are trsae anc and ease rae goen lal at eht sfl,e. I tel uyo nac og am lal glitnet hrut eht g,o wno we so. Dose ma otn baout ti i feogigtrnt yo,u on amen. Eb uagetfrl wlli tpar a be yuo i orf eeovrfr uoy am of m,e rof i slwyaa yuo yalsaw dna khtlfuan lwil.
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My nda uy,o sfle i obogeyd ldo veol.
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No, rofm eb nwo payhp t'esl.