A letter from December 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, you’re probably 21 now. I would do the math but, well I suck at math. I wonder if I got any better haha. Hopefully good enough to pursue my dream of becoming a vet. I often wonder what the future holds, and if it’s any better than now. Life isn’t too amazing right now, but i’m trying to make it work. I look in the mirror everyday and try to envision what i’m going to look like in the future, hopefully I can find more love for myself. I wonder if my relationship worked out with Chase. It’s an odd relationship but I really like him right now. We’re so different yet so alike, it’s almost magical. Even if we didn’t work out, I can say he’s taught me a lot of things. I’m slowly loving myself more and more thanks to him. I wonder if it’s too early to say I love you, maybe it goes unspoken. I can’t wait to graduate. School is extremely tough on everyone this year, and covid doesn’t help. Who knew life would change tremendously. It’s weird to think about. I wonder if it ever gets better. I wonder how you’re doing most of all. Are you happy? Is life everything you’ve dreamed of? I hope you achieved the goals you’ve set for yourself. I know you’re trying. I hope you’ve gotten to be easier on yourself. It’s hard to not judge the one person you spend all day with. It’s currently Sunday, December 20. I wish I could give you some life changing advice but the most I can say is I love you, and you’re doing your best. Life is tough but you can push through, and I know you pushed through. You may be a little weak at times but being hard headed has its perks. Did you get your black camry? I know it’s the car you wanted. Maybe I can start manifesting that tomorrow. Or maybe that’s just the procrastinator in me. Does THAT ever get better?😂 You may have flaws but I think you’re perfect. I hope you look at this and think “wow, she would be proud of me” because I am. No matter where you are in life, you made it. You made it this far, don’t ever give up. You’re stronger than you tell yourself, and I hope you realized that. With great Love, you’re younger self ❣️ P.S. You like nerd ropes, go get you some ;) And happy 21st *****, take a shot for me 🤪