A letter from December 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, u're 26!! i mean holy **** man. 26 is wow. it's currently 3:41 am. I'm sitting on my bed and is supposed to study for finals but i just can't find any sort of motivation in me. i'm at a very very low place in my life right now. i can't seem to stay stable for while. i think i've hit rockbottom. because i honestly don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. to be completely honest with u -me-. I'm getting quite comfortable in my dark hole. by the time u're reading this, i hope u found happiness, love and most importantly, peace within urself. i hope u have a good job that u love. married maybe? idk about that part. but if u are then congratulations. i hope u're happy right now. and if u're not, then too bad u gotta fight through it like u always do. I'm so proud of u. happy birthday me and i wish u everything u, we, every wanted. love you.