A letter from November 27th, 2020

Dear Future Emir, First of all, Happy birthday. I hope your life went how you did expect but I expect that my expectations will not happen so it is a paradox you can think about it. I am 19 right now and I am a little nervous because time flies and I might not be able to catch it, I hope I made some child, some anima,l or some people happy. I visualize future me as a "Yıkık" because I don't have enough self-esteem. Maybe I am more handsome (god please, I hope) or maybe more ugly, the thing is someone never believed us, you and me, but we are god **** smart. we can solve problems which lots of people can't so try to be more proud. While I am writing this I really thought that I am gonna end mess. BUT, If a accomplish something, If I have a girlfriend (bride) which is frikkin awesome (is she my first girlfriend, awww I feel my pulse going high, you made me happy future me <3) then your next goal is to have a child BUT, IF you only have a nice income. If you are asking why do I wanted child, imagining they will become adults make me feel good. Anyway no matter how is your life right now, try to be happy. right now I sometimes become depressive but forget it you deserve to feel good, you always try to be nice. you need to hear these type of compliments because no one else going to do that. Love you, I hope you see this mail. 19 years old Emir "Fastboi"