The Truth About Your Father

October 17, 2020 Dear Self, Today, your father broke your heart again. It's nothing new as it has always been the case of you trying to reach out to him and ask for an ounce of care, support, and love. But today was different. Yes, you've tried but there's already a hint of letting go. Letting go of the longing that one day he will see your worth as his son. That he will look past your ****** orientation and see you as the person that you are -- always loving and trying. There were many attempts to prove him that, but most of the time, if not always, he overlooked. Letting go of the thought that someday he will give support and praises beyond empty words, "I'm proud of you". That is what everyone is saying. Now, let's be honest, with all those achievements, who wouldn't be? The big difference is not everyone actively shows support and that includes him. Letting go of the idea that there's a potential future with this family. That everything could go back to the way it was decades ago. It might be a hard pill to swallow but that will never happen again. He never considered a future with you because if he did he wouldn't have stepped out of the door, left you for years without a word, and start a new family. He never truly cared, supported, and loved you. And that's the truth about your father. You've done your part and there's no need to defend him anymore. What is left is acceptance -- to embrace this truth wholeheartedly. This truth will never define you, 2020 Self