A letter from August 15th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, I am writing this on Saturday the 15th of August 2020 at 5:47 pm, in the midst of a pandemic after bombing my A-Levels. Life right now is very repetitive, friends are being weird, i cant get a job, i feel kinda depressed all the time. I hope things are better in the future. Questions I have for myself: - Did you end up getting into uni of kent? - If yes, are you actually going to go? - Did you get a job or apprenticeship? - Did you learn to drive? - Did you make any friends - Are you happier now? - Did you ever lose weight lol? - Are you still into the same music? - Are you and Jordan still together? (I rly hope so) - How's life after corona? - What was the first gig back like? - Have you crossed off much of your bucket list? - Stop whatever you're doing right now and listen to your August '20 playlist, and drink a diet coke if you can - Hope u got ur period lol - Do u still stan inhaler? or run the account? Can't think of anymore questions but those are the main things. Relationships and the future. I'm scared of losing everything. Mostly i'm scared of losing Jordan, he's the only good thing I have right now so please take care of him. Hope you're well...hope you're better. Love, Past Me x

Epilogue

2 months later

Hi 18 year old me!
This is you replying to, well, you on the day before your 20th Birthday! (so a little bit later than you had wished for sorry,...

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E,lov.
Uyo x rtuufe.