A letter from August 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi, how u doing??? Today is August 10th 2020 and is a Monday, right now is 04:25AM, and Im listening to Banners- somebody to you, great music btw. Im positive im not okay but I just don’t care enough to ask for help but I think im dealing really good with it, I don’t really know why im doing this but I just want to see my reaction to this in 5 years So did u graduate college? Please said you did we need the money, I know it is not the dream but it is okay, you can grow to like it, do be lazy we´ve been doing nothing for to long now. Plan a tripe, right now to anywhere, it doesn't matter, girl you need to live, see the word and if you are not doing it you better star, the word is to beautiful for you not to see it. I hope you still like rain, and to dance in it, it is something so simple and yet people don´t do it you know. Don´t forget to love, everything and everyone, there so much hate out there don´t be part of it, forgiveness is not for them it is for you, it is freeing, I know you like been alone but you need people they like you stop being paranoid, and if they don’t like you don’t worry not every one is going to and it is okay it there place but don’t be rude or mean be kind, be nice “between being right and being kind, always chose be kin”. If you are going thought something don’t worry it will get better, pain it not forever and we need it, make us alive, makes us appreciate happiness more, it hurts but learn from it. Don’t take live to serious, live a little, if you someone tell them, even if they don’t and it hurts love it is nothing to be ashamed of or something worth hiding. Gustavo, you need him and you know it, he is your best friend, your favorite person in the word, he is the love of your live DO NOT LET HIM GO. TO DO LIST/ BUCKED LIST -go to the beach -love yourself -have a good relationship with ur body -see snow -go to college -fall in love -dance the hole night -se the sunrise with people that you love -READ A ******* BOOK -actually believe in ur religion Ur fav color is purple now, ur fav movie is rio, ur fav music is somebody to you, you are addicted to tiktok, you are definitely failing school, you have a lot of dreams hope you make them happened, you are terrified of the real word, scared of what it might turn you in to. Blm? (black lives matter), LGBTQA+?, China, war, Africa? Is every one okay? Are we stupid yet I hope the word is better, COVID-19 and all, how many people died? Is Brasil a bad place to live? How is home? How is ur family? U know the like 16 uncles and aunts, the 30(?) cousins, ur sisters? How's mom? Call her and tell her that u love her. Did anybody died? If they did, it is okay, they are fine, they are with nana, it might hurt but time really makes it better Did u learn LIBRAS? Or another language? “if you are going thgho hell, keep going” “beaty is everywhere just depends whether you choose to see it” “she is my person; she will always be UR person” “there is nothing a good dance in the rain can't fix it” “dont forget to breath” Love - Maria Eduarda Almeida (younger you)