A letter from July 28th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, by the time you receive this, we'll be 18. all grown up huh? we have come such a long way and in about two months it'll be a year since dad and grandma passed away. hopefully, we're making them happy right now and the future. we did graduate, right? and now for you, the next chapter of life begins college. don't know how I feel about it and you probably don't either but I know we'll do good no matter no circumstances. currently, the college I want to go to is UCLA but what about mom? brother? grandma? not to mention how expensive it'll be and we probably won't even get a scholarship. cause who tf I am? a smart kid? no. a person who's good at sports? no. but enough about putting ourselves down time for questions. boyfriend? girlfriend? come out to the family? omg did we get kicked out? are we living on the street? ugh, let me stop being paranoid I'm starting to turn in to brother. speaking of him does he have kids cause right now he wants 5 kids. life will probably be so different from what it is now and even thinking about it is crazy to me. weird right? well, that's all I really had to say so I guess this is your 13 y/o checking in. love you and your amazing just the way you are. <3