A letter from July 26th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey FutureMe! As of right now your probably super confused and totally forgot you did this. It is June 26, 2020, I am 16, and I am going into my senior year. Super crazy and kinda scary. I am learning to drive (I hope your a great driver by then loser), I am in college (PHSC) and in HS right now and yknow very involved in school. I am hoping to get my AA before finishing HS but college math is hard so we'll see. :/ I'm in band still. I am section leader of flutes and clarinets. I am still very new to it all but i'm doing okay at it. The Future is still a huge question mark in my mind right now. As of right now my plan is to go to college, maybe USF or FSU. FSU is a long shot but if I did get in, my grandpa would be super happy, which would make me happy:). I'm still fully invested in the health career. In HS I am president of HOSA, Historian of FBLA, I'm in S.P.L.A.S.H. club, band leadership - Librarian and section leader, JSA, HCA and I'm still looking for many clubs to join. I still have yet to do my SAT & ACT. I'm super nervous, my scores determine my future.... Other than school stuff I am growing greatly as a person. I feel as I really grew my junior year. My music taste is getting a little bit better too. I am trying to be more of a teen, more spontaneous. You only get to be a teen once so I'm trying to make it worth-while. The other night I actually smoked weed for the first time, it was a good first time, I felt like I was moving 15 mph. I hope your an avid smoker by now, no nicotine though... that's gross. I actually don't know if you remember this but just a little bit ago you crashed your best friends car :0. Uh yeah are you and Bri still friends? Luckily I paid it off already, it wasn't too bad (your a much better driver now lol). Speaking of friends, how's Cora? And Aspen...Ashley...Destiny? I hope your still talking to them, their like your only cool friends right now. Just the other day you found out that BRIAN LIKES ASPEN??? ITS SO CRAZY HAHA. What happened with that? You still can't say anything to them about it ://. This is a lot previous but you had the FATTEST crush on Cora's brother... Drake... well you thought he was cute, still do but we are more buds now, it's pretty chill between us. How's the Robert's/Bruce family doing? Oh my goodness how could I forget. How's Henry? He's not even a month yet!! He should be 4 by now (I think) whew time flies by. Can't forgot Ollie, how's Ollie? Back to the crushes... Cora liked Conner too, haha we both liked each others brothers, that's so funny. You don't really like anyone in certain right now, talking to some guys, they don't really want a relationship, they just want *** and you can't really accept that, I hope you can now, you deserve better. Your also trying to find yourself, what you like to do, your personality. Your trying out thrifting (I hope your still doing that). It's going good, finding some good thrifts. I am trying to lose weight cause gotta look good for college ;). Do you have a boyfriend yet? Does he treat you right? What's his name? I hope he treats you right, don't ever settle girl ;)). Oh also I'm listening to this banger playlist on Spotify while writing this, I should be doing homework but oh well. The name of the playlist is "COMING OF AGE" created by Luke Huston. You look up to Luke Huston, he's how you want to be with life. He's very care-free, a wild soul. He's also going into his senior year and also very nervous about his future. You guys have a lot in common. Do you remember him? What's he up to now? You've also recently got into Twitch. You still into that? Do you still watch Chrisudalla's streams... is he evening streaming anymore? That man is so funny, love his vibes. I don't really have much else to say. Life's going kinda slow but fast all at once. I want it to stop, I want to live as a teen for a little bit longer, in that "don't wanna grow up" mood right now. I feel as if I'm not really doing that good right now. Don't have a job, nothing in my savings, nervous for SAT's and ACT's, don't have a car yet, etc etc. I'm just searching for that feeling. That feeling of success, comfort with how I'm doing in life. :/ Have you found that yet? You also uh have a job yet? (Hopefully you do) You've been searching lately, it's hard, no one wants a 16 year old but i'm going into my senior year so uh I really need one. You worked for your creep landlord for a bit, remember that? It paid good but wasn't worth the weird ****** questions. How about your plan of rooming with Bri at USF? Having an apartment after the first year of college? I hope that worked out, it sounded fun! Okay I'll wrap this up. I hope your doing well. Always remember your dream of being a billionaire and donating almost all of it cause who wouldn't? Don't be greedy with it either. p.s. I hope you don't have any kids or let someone change your mind about wanting them, cause you know you never wanted them. It's okay if YOU changed your mind though, just saying their kinda gross. :) p.s.s. I know your doing well, keep it up, don't be too hard on yourself.