A letter from July 26th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, You are going to be 30 in TWO DAYS. I can barely imagine being 25 I don't know how you are gonna handle 30. Hopefully with much more grace than I would. Right now Taylor Swift just released a new album like two days ago called "Folklore" and Dave downloaded all the Film's songs on your Spotify. Not really sure what movies are out because of the pandemic, but we watch a lot of Bobs Burgers and sit in bed. Are you still with David? Did you get married? If so was it everything you ever hoped it would be? Do you have kids??? I hope mom and dad are still good, they deserve to be good you know? Right now everything is so uncertain. Living in the middle of a pandemic, which hopefully by the time you get this is long,long, gone. Dave had to go to bed early because he is getting his CPR tomorrow for school. I graduate from my graduate program into placement in a couple weeks but options aren't great. God please tell me you have a career by now. I want so badly for you to just have something stable and decent so you can save money. More importantly I hope you are happy. You deserve to be happy. I was thinking about today (like I do every year) how everything is different, and how I wish I would have done so much more with all this time. Made more friends, gone out more, got back into writing. I hope you do all the things I feel like I should have done by now. I hope that YouTube channel you started this morning is something you stick with ( we will see haha). I hope you and Evgeniya got to go on that vacation we wanted to so badly. I hope you don't have to worry about if you can pay the rent like I do now. I hope you still get to call Mom everyday. I hope somethings never change. It would be cool if as I'm writing this beside David snoring away you are reading it doing the same thing. Uh... I'm trying to think of something that might be cool to say? Or make you happy. Did you have to get rid of all your piercings? Did any job ever let you have a cool hair colour again? I wish I knew all the answers to this stuff but I guess I'll find out! Maybe none of it matters, and your entire life is so different from what I could possibly even imagine (I'm banking on a lottery win). Holy **** do you have wrinkles????? It's okay if you do but I know internally you are probably ******** about it. Hope they are the kind you get from smiling too much. Love, Old You (25 Years Old) ( You better not **** this up for us, I'm counting on you!!!)