A letter from July 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi Kazi! Today, I officially let everything go. I hope you have I hope these things no longer bother you. I love you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Letting Go (Sunday, 26th July 2020) Today, I choose let go of; 1. Locking myself up. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life locking my heart up. half-loving people just because I’m afraid of losing them. I choose not to. I will find comfort in whatever the outcome. 2. Pushing people away. I will no longer be mean to the people closest to me. I will no longer push people away. I will learn to love as I am loved. I will learn to trust as I am trusted. I will learn to vent as I am vented to. 3. Self hate! I am strong. I am beautiful. I am good enough. & I am worthy of love. Last but not least; 1. Pain. Daddy, you have hurt me so so so much. I don’t know know if I’ll ever find the right words to explain the dark place I find it very difficult to escape from. I’ve tried, God knows I have. But for some reason my pain comes at times I least expect it. when I don’t have any control over it. 2. I’ve also decided to stop trying with you. I will always ALWAYS love you. But it’s ******* me to wait for you to love me back. God will do his part, I put my trust in that. 3. Depression. **** depression bro. it’s been eating me up these past few months. it’s a battle I can never seem to win. with my mind, with myself. **** depression. But not anymore, I’m done. It will take time. My healing will take time. My unlearning process will take time. But I believe in myself.❤️ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I believe in you. I believe God has given you the strength to overcome the things you have chosen to let go of.