A letter from July 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you found the RIGHT that you were looking for, the person who entered and unlocked that door :) who took your walls down who took the thorns off and who is ready change your past and make memories with you know...It’s your 12 year old self you wrote this hmm well,For now i’m not doing quite well i’m still suffering from anxiety and depression and of course i still listen to music ALL THE TIME hahah XD music makes me feel relaxed at ease and it makes me feel FREE and i’m still doing art well you know Mom isn’t really into me like doing activities and stuff instead she wants me to read and write study even though i already did and it’s quite pressuring me it makes me want to cry every time she talks about my future.But i always tell myself that this is not what Dada wanted me to be she that before she was gone she wanted me to live a happy and peaceful life hmm well for now i can’t i don’t even know or sure if you’ll be able to read this please don’t cry too because i am literally crying while writing this LMAO😭✨ but you know? I’m still looking for the right person who i could trust enough to enter this door of mine but....i..i don’t....know if i could ever find him/her :) but it’s gonna be ok i’m sure i can live by myself without relying on anyone UnU hehe...Please continue on doing art and listening to music REMEMBER (crying is only for people who are WEAK) well at least that’s what i believe but i know that’s not what you believe HAHA well see you my teen self live a life and NEVER SMOKE OR DRINK🎧👌 bye❤️