A letter from July 24th, 2020

Dear Future Me, you are a cool guy and I hope you know that. I hope you are still planning to be a Physical therapist or in a physical therapist school. HOW ARE YOU AND are you with Jess still? How is it being you? Are you still fat? If not good job. I hope you are happy. Say hi to your mom and dad and brother. Say hi to jess if you are still friends. Right now you love her a lot so don't screw it up. Knowing me I am probably going to read this so I will say something that I really mean. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. Please please do ok. I know it is hard sometimes but please. I don't know what the future holds but I hope I do well. I hope you're doing well. I hope you're still alive. I wonder what would happen if I died. Like would this letter just be sent to my email never to be opened? I hope you still act like a kid. No matter how hard it gets, be true to yourself. You lie to yourself a lot you act differently from who you really are a lot. I think its to please others but hey man you got to think about yourself. If you are still living with your parents, you're kind of a loser man. It's fine you are lucky to have them, they love you a lot. I know you like giving up and crying sometimes but don't, you need to work hard. I don't know how ill be in the future but two nights ago I cried for like an hour because I realized I couldn't help everyone who needed it. You need to work hard to help others ok. They need you, they need help. Be there for them no matter how hard it gets. You need to help people make your life mean something. You're young but you can be doing so much right now to help people, so go out and do it. Sorry if you aren't happy, sorry if I am hurting you. I don't know what to do right now I feel really lost. I hope you have found yourself. They are making me listen to old Indian music you'd listen to if someone died. It's starting to get to me, its sad knowing I have to grow up against my will. Why did they choose this music? I feel like I'm writing to someone who went to war and they died but I don't know yet. Then at your funeral, I put the letter on your coffin with a tear in my eye. If you are wondering why The 's are in place thank Grammarly. I don't know how the world will be in the future but I know that you are going to do great and if you are not then when they invent time travel come back here so I can have a stern talk with you. I kind of don't know what else to say, I feel like crying right now and I don't know why. Maybe it's the music. I just I don't know I feel like I am writing this for someone who isn't going to be there to read it. If you are there reading this please make your life worth something call family jess and everyone be well I love you. I got to go I love you even if you don't feel self-love sometimes remember you are worth it.