A letter from July 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey, i found this through tiktok and i wrote this to you on 3:06 am with my black tshirt and laying down with all thousands thoughts in my mind right now. listen, i love you, somuch. and i really sorry for giving you hard time all the time, making you sad, stressing you, telling you all the negative things to your mind and sinking you to the deep **** feelings many times. i just want to tell you that im very proud for being you. i just wish you to not give up. i just wish you to know that you are worth for every single beautiful things that world could give to you. i know that your life is a messed up but heeeeeeeeyyyy did you remember that the rainbow always come after a big rain? i wish you can be always happy. its okay to be not okay, yes it is!! its okay to be overthinking stuff, yes alisha it is!! but one thing you should know that the only person who can make you happy is you. you should know that your minded is powerful enough to create beautiful, peaceful, and positive mindset. once again i love you, i wish you for now and on or insha allah in 5 years from now that you could be more stronger, more brave, more kind, down to earth, smiling more, realizing that out there people do actually loves you, get all your dreams come true, maybe now you are sitting in your dream house with your lovely person with you and you are smiling and telling yourself "see alisha? you did it, you made it, now you are here", feel loved more and can spreading all the loves that you have to the people arround you. i love you alisha, i love me, and i do believe that one day you can be something that you dreamed of. i'll see you soon insha allah in my years from now with love, from me to my self