A letter from July 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, i hope you found what you were looking for. i hope you found someone to trust. i hope you found someone that loves you back. i hope you have solid friendships and better relationships with your family. because right now, i don’t have that. i don’t think i can actually trust anyone in my life. i have friends but i don’t think they actually care about my wellbeing. i have no idea what i want to do with my life. have you figured that out yet? i am currently living through covid 19. my senior year is going to start soon and it isn’t going to be how it should be. i won’t have everything that other senior classes got to experience. although i don’t know, i probably won’t have fnl, homecoming, any sporting events, and possibly won’t even get to go into school. i’m not happy. i am so angry at the world. people are so selfish. our president doesn’t care about people who are dying when they shouldn’t be. he isn’t doing anything. people are dying, people are out of jobs, can’t pay rent or buy essentials, and children’s education is going to be all screwed up just because he didn’t think this would affect anyone. it did. nobody listened to literal scientists. why? they knew what they were talking about. they just made it essential to wear masks in my county but that should’ve happened back in march. this could’ve been over and i could have the senior year that i have looked forward to for the past 10 years. people shouldn’t have to struggle like they still are. and that’s just the start of why i’m angry. this world is so ****** up. why are human rights even an argument? black people should not have to fear for their lives every second of every day. racism is real and there are so many ignorant people that pretend like to doesn’t matter. IT DOES. a black human is still a human, a *** human is still a human, a trans human is still a human. it shouldn’t matter who. i just don’t understand why this is such a huge argument right now. the things that are happening in portland right now are absolutly horrible. and the fact that the news and government is hiding it is just so infuriating. peaceful protests turned into gasings and beatings from the police. it is insane. the US is no where near great and i don’t think it ever was. how is it now? i hope life is good. i really do