A letter from July 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Love yourself, maybe 5 years from now you can do that. I know it won't be easy but you deserve love. Don't let anyone hurt you, okay? You cant lose it, i know that there's a soft side inside you that no one else knows. I wish and hope by now you won't be insecure, you dont need to check your teeth from time to time. You made a right desicion. I hope now you can smile freely, you can post pictures without hiding anything. I hope you can do things you love and want, do it, for your past self. I know it may be a long road bit lets make it worth it. Be yourself, dont let anyone judge you, dont let anyone break you. I also hope that by now, you have true friends that will treasure you the way you treasure them. It may be a rough way but please dont stop, please dont give up. I want by now you can choose what you like, choose what course you love, make everything we've fight and will still fight worth it. You can do it, i hope by now you can make desicions without hesitations. Dont forget me, your old self, cause this is me who made you, this is me who realized every flaw of you, this is me who is insecure of myself, dont forget that. I have a task for you okay? I hope by now there is no Charisse who would smile awkwardly infront of the cam, who would always be self consious, who would always hide her feelings inside, who is weak, I hope you would change, for the better. I hope you can call yourself beautiful now, i hope you dont need to compare yourself to others, I hope you can express everything you feel. By this day, I wish yiu would pass the entrance exam;)) itmay be bu, ust, up? Who knows, i just want the best for you. 5 years from now you may take those entrance exams, but i hope before you take any of those exams you wont compare yourself from your brother.You are smart, maybe? Ahahaha. I hope by now your smile dont need to be forced, i hope by now laughs dont need to be fake, i hope all of those would be true, cause tou deserve it. Remember when you need to buy plastic wrap to use it to your tummy just to make it flat? Ahahaah i did it just by now:() Remember when you watch videos on youtibe just to make dark spots on your skin lighten? Ohh this is the time when i just started that Ahahaha baking soda, calamansi, water, remember that? Or maybe you're still using thoseeee AHAHAHAHAA i hope it works gosh;)) You've been sooOo insecure at this point do you know that? Buying something from shopee, but is still on the cart cause you know you cant use those clothes in public beacause of being insecure. AAAHHH enough with those ahahah. I just hope that you, future self would have a beautiful smile by now, i really hope so, you know, thats my weakness, my biggest insecurity, i hope you can now smile freely, i hope you wont have to question your worth. I hope by now you can wear anything you want. I hope by now you can see yourself on a piece of paper saying that you passed the entrance exam in UP, entrance exam in bu and many more universities:)) I just want to remind you, future self to know your worth, its okay to remain single😉 but ready to mingleeeEe ahahahaha NooOo. Its okay to be single, atleast you have yourself, atleast you love yourself. Hey, do you remember when you wished to be in the bar? Go to bar with your true friends and stay drunk Ahahaha well thats because of university seriesss AHAHAH remember that? hope you still:)) gUrL i HopE bY nOw yOu sTiLL hAve tHe "V" card ha! I cant afford to know that you lost it like gurl you should be hard to gett uhggg AHAHHAHAA I can accept if you lost it on a hot lawyer, like jax🤭😉, a handsome engineer;)), or a cute- archi student from Ust ahahaaha charr gurll how i wishh,UST?AHH. But gurl seriouslyyy, dont loose it to someone elsee, the v carddd ughh, use it for MOREE future purpusesss. I suppose by now you're on your first year in college, i hope you choose the course you love ha! I cant afford seeing myself five years from now cryibg because of a dumb desicion of picking a course. Cmonn i think it might be fashion designing, architecture? Who knows, LaWyEr?!! We dont know, only you, my future self would know, its your desicion, it would probably change your life so think of it properly ha! But ofcourse choose the one you love, thats the dirst rule in getting your course:°( i dont even know what course i like, wven a job