A letter from July 22nd, 2020

Ilona, I hope you have what you've always dreamed of - mentally and physically healthy, and finding happiness while living a simple life. Just want to let you know your current situation two years ago today, and you will receive the same letter again three years later. Yesterday you were diagnosed with acute stress disorder. A week before that, you attended a counselling session with a psychologist (cost you RM150 per session!). Thanks to JJ who was concerned over your condition, he skipped work and brought you to see a psychologist, even paid for it! Please, if you look back and feel like you haven't treated JJ the way he should be treated, please go and hug him right now, tell him you love him, apologise for everything, and embrace his presence. He has always been there for you, you know? He is such an incredible guy to begin with. He would sacrifice everything JUST FOR YOU. He lost his dad just three months ago yet he is still the strongest person you know. He puts aside his emotional baggage just so he could help fix yours. So, if you haven't appreciated him lately, stop everything you do right now, go meet him or call him, or whatever it is depending on your situation right now, do everything you can to tell him that you love him! HUG HIM TIGHT!! THAT MAN DESERVES ALL THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!! I know you are not in the journalism field anymore now because you left your journalist jobs two times within the period of four years. It's time to move on and stop looking back. Remember that George guy? Who caused all the stresses? Well, I hope you have forgiven him for doing things he only thought could help you learn and become the best journalist. It's okay not to be as strong as anyone else. You need to love yourself before you could love anything or anyone else. That's important, okay? I don't have a clear vision of how our future would be like two years and five years from now. I would say, leaving a job without a back up plan was a bold thing to do, but it's all for the sake of your mental health. No matter how you are doing right now, believe that God will provide ya? Pray a lot, and have faith. Be thankful of the current blessings you have, and it doesn't matter if your life did not go as planned because God has something better for you along the journey, all you have to do is trust him. Okay? Don't forget to check up on your family too, especially your parents and siblings. I hope you don't resent them as much as you did in 2020. That was a really sad thing, what you have done. I hope by now, you have learned to forgive yourself and everyone else, and embrace those who have been there for you since the beginning. Especially your family: daddy, mummy, Audrey, Alvin and Kevin.