A letter from July 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Its been 5 years since your brother has passed and yet you haven't moved on. Moving on means to you that forgetting that he ever existed but in reality, it's accepting that he's in a better place and that you'll meet again and to cherish the memories that you had together. But what has his ***** caused you? Well, his ***** caused you to be depressed and suicidal as you carry a lot of guilt. Your guilty as you chose your own happiness over then visiting and spending time with him while he was in the hospital when he was in pain and suffering. You've tried to commit suicide 4 times but didn't go through because you didn't want your family and friends to be upset and in pain, as they didn't see that you were suffering because you didn't let them see, you were suffering in silence.