A letter from July 20th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's 2020 and i am bored , sad and tense because of my ibs which started in2015 and getting worse day after day ...and really don't know how to deal with that , whenever it happens i feels worried and scared and can't really think logically and a little hard to breath it's just maybe 20 min or less but in mind it's 20years specially when i was outside my house and i am 16 turning into 17 on a few months.. so i should focus on my self and try live my life such as anybody it's not always like that this problem going and comeback when it goes i feel i am live like i don't have to think too much but now i really have to i always think no body will help me and some stupid thoughts like i want go to the bath room but there is no bath room or it's to far and all my family keep saying ur not a child hold ur self they don't know that the sceard feels me think like that and i cannot go with my friends or my cousins with out thinking abt the time and how far is the place where i go and i know it's weird but it's i tried my best but whenever it comes and i am outside comes again and live with me for months and go and comes and i am sick of that i just wanna live ... i have to see and focus on my future i hope i be a pediatrics cya try to solve your problems and you will be fine , strong and successful ❤️🙏🏻