A letter from July 19th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Right now as I write this I have absolutely no idea what I want to do. I’m in between three plans. Plan number one (safety plan, but unhappy): I will finish my degree in middle school mathematics and become a middle school math teacher. I will live an ordinary life that lives within the constraints of the 10 month school year. I will probably marry and live in a suburban house and be unhappy and feel bored all of my life. I’ll make a decent living and be okay. I will get summers to travel where ever I want to and breaks for holidays insured. I will receive a promised pension upon retirement. This is the path i’m on so I won’t have to make scary changes to my life. Plan number two (Changed anxious plan, content life): With this plan I will change my current under grad degree to education. I will then go to grad school at eku for a school counselors degree and do that. I won’t have as much stress as a teacher does, and I will have the same time constraints but I will be able to leave work at work possibly. This is something that can seem fun because I can helps kids at school, as well as plan events depending on the age I am with. This is scary though because I will have to change my major soon & that seems difficult lol Plan number three (unrealistic, but a happy life): This plan entails me graduating with whatever degree and then just leaving Kentucky and pursuing a job I won’t get. Either acting or being an influencer or whatever. I’m starting a tik tok account this week where I’m gonna try to become an influencer but I’m blocking everyone I know IRL so I will feel free to post what I want. I doubt this plan will happen because i’m ugly and fat and anxious but I would love to just disappear from everyone. These are my plans and I’m going to be thinking on them. at this moment I do not have a plan but I hope to have one by Christmas 2020. This is coming in five years from now. I hope you find yourself. Developed your magic, psychic abilities, and picked a career that you want not what you think you have to do. I know you’re always scared to make a move on something but maybe you finally did something impulsive without stopping when it got too wild. It would be funny if I ended up in something that isn’t even on my list lol but anyways good luck with becoming famous. Have you met Charli yet? omg remember kai 🤩 u were simping so hard this is about careers but i will say rn you are maladaptive daydreaming that you will end up with either jorden, preseton, back with caitlin, or with a random tik tok lesbian lol so good luck with that if you’re not still single. I am old but young and I hope I stay young for a long time. goodbye fatty slim thick u rock