A letter from July 14th, 2020

yo i love you. u may not love you right now or as ur reading this. but i love you. now that we've moved on from that i have some questions boyfriend? happy with who u see in the mirror? hows running am i getting better? ONE DIRECTION WHAT R THEY UP TO NOW when ur reading this it would be nearing 15 bloody years i would rather cry that think about that. larryyyyyyy ;) haha. are all the boys free and happy? i know louis is now but how are they all going? also what happened for their reunion. im going crazy over here. i cant imagine a world where they r actually no longer on a break. hows was school? ive got 2 and a half years left and then if i stick to forensics probably another 70 after that. did i/we stick to forensics? if i did how is it going? or did i change my mind again. also this is odd but what about tiktok did it get banned yet? blitz isnt with us anymore isn't he? what about our friends? who r they now? do i still talk with sara and jersey and naysa? what other friends have i made. how the fam. hows dad? i love him a lot and i really miss him when he has to leave but i feel bad whenever i complain about it bc its only for 3/4 weeks but sometimes its a lot more than that. how r they boys cute little hunter and deakin. i hope they never grow up. I have brooke walshes 16th birthday party saturday. todays tuesday. dad left and tomorrow me and sara are going to the city. im not really sure how these letters work so i might just tell u a bunch of things weight- 60kg is maybe 58ish height-5'5.5/6 employed- kinda. lowkey babysitting fav show-criminal minds and lowkey greys anatomy fav food-idk chinese maybe fav colour-deep/dark green fav song- infinity -one directon fav member- louis crush/past boys- kellan: crushed on him for 2 and a bit years. he and lucy started dating this march. josh:brooke walker somehow managed to get me to think hes cute but i dont really think so but im confused bc brooke and caitlyn were like omg u two so cute together. charlotte is in on it too. ALSO HOW IS CHARLOTTE BC SHE IS AMAZING AND I LOVE HER anywaysysyssy i think this is all so bye bye and i cant wait for you to read this is five years. also some polotical/historical events that have happened- we are in the middle/ hopefully towards the end of a global pandemic. COVID-19 i had to tale around 2 months of school off but i mean im not complaining. but there is a strand of it that was kinda going around and 'targeting' kids so yeahhhh. also BLM protests bc a change needs to happen and i refuse to live in a world where people have to fear for their life everyday simply for the colour of their skin which is something they have no control over (stream four :)) it kinda all escalated after the ***** of george Floyd. he was ****** by a couple of officers they kneeled on his neck and he repeatedly told them he cant breathe. breonna taylor, she was shot but some people who and to no surprise were also police officers. people who have sworn to protect us. who is going to protect us when the people that r supposed to protect us are ******* innocent people? on a more uplifting note bc i dont want to end this crappy bc thats a horrible way to end the letter, ive had a good couple of days but then i ate like crap today and i didn't run so now i feel like crap but i think things r getting better and worse at the same time. i think everything will be okay. i love you more i'm proud of u -saige autum mcconnell, 15 years old, july 14 2020