A letter from July 8th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, happy 18th birthday! i’m happy to see you’re still here. it’s been a rough 2020 over here, one of the worst moments in my life was mum leaving me for months/being reported missing, i have to stay with nan for a bit while this all gets worked out. if you’re still here today, all i gotta say is, i’m proud of you for getting this far, for believing and getting through this all. i can’t wait to be 18 and grow older, i hope kayla is still my best friend and in my future, keep her, she’s worth every moment. it’s the 8th of July, 2020, and i’m having suicidal thoughts, my brother has moved on from me over to his girlfriend (Leah) and logan, mum has abandoned me and making me feel like **** while she sits there doing drugs all day, dad has to go to work everyday so i never get to see him, while i have to go to oshc everyday, no one ever asks if i’m ok, they just see right through me, my friends are toxic and make jokes about if i died. it’s probably easier to just end it all, but i know if i do i’m hurting many people, but then everyone’s hurting me. i don’t know what to do, i know if i end it now i won’t live to see this message. i don’t wanna ruin your day anyway, it’s your special day, your 18, go out and live life. i love you so much, remember you got this. xx