A letter from July 8th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi. Last Monday I tried to **** myself. I am in the worst place I have ever been in. My anxiety and depression is at an all time high and last week I just was not coping at all. I made that decision last week and it did not turn out the way I planned. It didn’t work and now I am here. I am stuck. I have no idea what the future holds. But now I am getting help. They are changing my meds and I am receiving more aggressive counselling. I hope that it helped. I hope with all my heart you are better or at least a little happier. I hope life doesn’t suck so much. I hope you are feeding yourself, sleeping enough and not harming yourself. I hope I did enough now to help you. I am sorry I tried to end it all. I hope you can forgive the old me for my mistakes. Mostly I hope you can look back on me as I am now and appreciate the growth that has come from all this pain. I hope that it is for good. Lots of love, Emily.