A letter from July 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hopefully, by the time you receive this letter, we have finally finished University and are free to explore the world at our own will. I hope that you took any chance given to travel the world (even if mum told you not to go), or you made your own path to finally go see more of Europe (mainly Norway!!). I will be very disappointed if you didn't go to at least two different places after you finished University. At the moment of writing this letter, there is a lot going on in your life. One of the things I hope is that you stuck to your weight loss journey and are finally now the beautiful skinny legend that we both know you aspire to be. Even if this is not the case, I hope that you have learned to love the skin that you are in more than I do at this moment in time. It's hard for me to imagine a time where I would be happy with the way I look. Michael Walker. This name will do one of a few things. It may: A- Bring back a flood of memories (good and bad) with the few loves of our life. B- Spark a rage within. C- Bring us a little joy at the realization that our romance has now been going on for 7.5 years. Although current me struggles to admit it, he is the person that I can see my life with and I know that at this moment I am scared that he doesn't feel the same or is just using me. Hopefully, if you're still in contact you have finally met him and I wish for him to be everything and more of what you imagined. If in five years you are still together, please remember your life long desires should not be forgotten because of a boy. Especially one from Florida. I understand this letter seems like it's full of hope. Hope is one of the few things at the moment that can get me out of bed in the morning and out on a run. The hope for a better mindset for myself is what drives me right now and maybe it is still the same in five years. In light of this, here is a list of things I'm also hoping for: *I hope that you still actively fighting the injustices in the world as much as you can. Maybe in five years, this won't be needed as much but with the current political climate of the world, I highly doubt it. *I hope that you finally took the plunge and got yourself a therapist and diagnosed. We both know that it's a long time coming. *I hope you dyed your hair pink again. We both know how cool it looked when we did it before. And finally, I know how hard you are on yourself. You believe that you're not worthy of love, you're untalented and stupid. Please PLEASE give yourself a break when you need one. Take chances. Love unconditionally. See the world. Erin (05/07/2020)