A letter from July 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It is July 4th 2020, I’ve been into K-pop for just over 7 months now. I currently have 5 albums and Stan these groups; NCT, ATEEZ, BTS, TXT, SKZ, CRAVITY, MONSTA X, THE BOYZ, DAY 6, GOT7, SUPER JUNIOR, EXO, SHINEE. At the time I’m writing this I have not been to any k-pop concert gotten a signed album or seen any of my fav idols. Right now I’m trying to turn my life around to become a healthy hard working student. I hope by when you get this, I will have graduated high school with a 4.0 (I’ll accept a 3.9 or 3.8) and have lost the amount of weight I wanted to. I recently just came out to myself as Asexual Biromantic, do you still feel the same or have you changed? Did you come out to our friends and family yet? If so were they supportive, if not what is holding you back. Are you in a relationship? If so are you happy, I hope you treat them the way I wanted, like a prince/princess. If you’re not have you been In a relationship since I’ve written this email, if so why did you end it, were they toxic, were you toxic? Did you ever see a therapist or a councillor or our grandparents ignore you? Is Dad alive? I know how gruesome that sounds, but as of right now he relapsed and my hope for him getting clean is extremely low. If he is still alive is he clean yet? If so how long? How is Dylan doing? Did he end up going to college? Did he fight with our grandparents more? How is Mom? Did you get to see her again? If so what was it like? Was it as scary as we thought it would be? How are our cats? I hope when you get this they are still alive, I love them very much. How are our friends, did you leave the friend group like we wanted, are you still friends with Eve? Is Eve still dating Christian or did they finally end it for good? Did they realize their worth, or do they still seem to need a man’s approval? How are they mentally? How is Grace? Is she still dating Keenan? Is she happier now? Are you still friends? How are Alyssa and Lukas? Did they break up? Did Hayden ever stop being a ****? How was high school? Was it hard? Did you fail any classes? How are you? Did you stop cutting, do you no longer want to die? K-pop recently has been helping me a lot with things, I think if we never found it maybe their would be no future me to write to. Did we ever recover from that party in grade 9 when we got ******** assaulted? Are we happy now? Are we doing something we like? Did we make new friends? Do we finally have a good best friend? Are we no longer the last pick or the third wheeler? Have we found our soulmate yet? I will talk about how I am now, I know this is a really long email but I’m dying to know. I find life really hard right now, I hope it will be better in the future. Now my predictions. I think that we will graduate high school with a good grade and get a scholarship for college, I hope that we get to open a flower shop is South Korea, do we still want to? I hope that we find someone who makes us happy. I think we will have at least one SO in high school. Did anybody ever confess to us? I know I’m all over the place. I think that Eve and Christian will finally break up and Eve will start dating another person, I think they might continue the cycle they are on, I hope they realize their relationship is really toxic. I think that Lukas and Alyssa won’t last it to graduation neither do I think grace and Keenan will, I hope if they don’t that doesn’t affect our friend group. Lastly I think we are happy. I hope in the future we get to do all the things we want. I will keep fighting so that we’ll be alive in the future to read this email. ILY