A letter from July 4th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Day 100 of lockdown. It's also been nearly a month ago that you went to see the lawyer to file for your divorce. You have so many second thoughts. Your mind is racing with 10000 thoughts per second. Are you doing the right thing? Did you really try hard enough? Is there truly a better life waiting for you if you follow through? You have been separated for almost 5 months and it has been hell! But always, always remember why you made this decision. It was for your son's wellbeing. His dad wasn't good for him and did not act in his best interest. A broken collarbone was not the first or last incident! Family and friends recently reminded you that you had these concerns right from the start.... You saw warning signs way before any incident took place. You are not overreacting!!! You are doing the right thing and someday, hopefully, your boy will understand why you did what you needed to do. Things will get better! Life will return to normal and you will get to be around friends and family again. Hopefully by the time this message reaches you, you will be in a much better space. Yes, you had true love but your boy was not to be blamed for what went wrong in your marriage. Your husband was an immature, self-absorbed and self-obsessed loser who couldn't deal with the responsibility of such a big blessing. I hope you have opened yourself up to receiving and giving love. I hope you have learned to let go of always trying to be in control of everything. Please always consider how your words and actions might hurt those around you. You can be a ****** boss lady at work. No space for that at home - especially not in a relationship! I truly hope you are happy and that you are more careful of who you let in. But don't shut off completely. You will know where to draw the line. I am sure you have learned from previous mistakes. Your marriage was not a mistake - you would never have been able to predict that this is how and why it would end! Never! This wasn't in your husband's character at all. Your boy comes first! You are a brave mommy! I salute you for taking the tough road ahead! But if anybody could do it, it would be you. Take care of yourself! And sanitise your hands for old time sake. Cheers Xx You in the 2020 Pandemic