A letter from July 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, i’m so numb, like the numbest i’ve been in my life. i don’t know if i’ll be alive in 5 years, to be honest i don’t even know what i’ll be doing with my life. i just hope your not as lost as i am right now. in 5 years you’ll be 18.. **** that seems like such a long way away. i mean i can barely get my work done at the moment. we’re still in the corona pandemic and i don’t know if we will ever be out of it. i just want you to know i love you. and if it isn’t me who’s reading this and i’m gone and it’s my parents reading me please know that none of this was your fault.