A letter from June 27th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Well I told myself I wouldn’t do this but here i am... well my life is kinda hectic right now not that you will prolly remember the corona virus is still going strong and the protest have become I’m scared of what the future will bring us... I don’t really agree with the things that are happening but you just have to deal with it.. I honestly thought I wouldn’t of made it to know I’m starting to relapse and I’m scared that I’m going to lose this battle this time I may of won the last one but this one is strong my anxiety is so off the hook I can’t control it anymore I don’t feel right. I feel like I’m not doing enough like I’m forced to keep living for others instead of myself maybe that’s why I don’t feel anything I don’t feel love happy pain I can’t feel anything but I have to keep pushing for you right know you’ve prolly graduated. Congrats btw you didn’t think you would’ve made it this far but you did congratulations you’ve earned i. Well off that topic my birthday is coming up uncle bill from Georgia is coming up and all my cousins from down there that should be fun. :) I just have to keep a smile on my face and it will be okay..... right know it’s June 26,2020 the world is hectic everybody is blaming the police saying they need to defund them saying that we don’t need them I saw a video of tear gas being thrown into a horse trailer with 3 horses inside of it 1 had to be put down the other 2 and stay scared the tear gas was thrown by the protesters and people still support this movement an animal that had nothing to do with it suffered a consequence for something they don’t even understand was happening... well there’s a lot more to say but I’m ***** keep it short and simple and hope you read this by the time your 18 and I hope your living a good life... and remember you can do this with a little bit of mind power you’ve been through worse don’t turn to alcohol to solve your problems it won’t... make the world a betters place make yourself be heard don’t sit in silence be loud and proud you got this Sincerely, Your 2020 self