A letter from June 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I already wrote one of these for my 14th birthday. No cap I'm probably dead by nowww. But it izz what it izzz. If I've already committed suicide and my parents are reading this then hi, I'm really sorry. I'd rather not live then live in sadness and darkness. It's not your fault. If I'm not dead then yay! I didn't think I'd make it to this day. But you got it❤️ no one would ever think I have depression... I don't show emotion like that. But I can't be forced to not have emotion. I still feel.. and if I'm STILL struggling with suicidal thoughts then holy ****, tell mom and dad and get help. It's gone on for too long. I hope you have good friends and I hope you've found your *********. And guess what??? Your 18 now!!! I'm so happy for you. Collage is going to be great. Right now I either want to be an engineer, model, soccer player, or house designer. I'm excited to know if I end up being one! I love you so so so much. From, Your 13 year old self