A letter from June 24th, 2020

dear christina, its been a long time since you wrote this and i hope you're doing well. ima just take you back to 2020 for a minute. currently, daddy donald is super stressed because tiktok decided to **** with him. HELLA BEASTTTT ik. corona is still a thing and you're kinda scared abt the second wave hitting. you're not living with dad because he makes your blood boil and mom sometimes does too but at least you have somewhere to go to get time away from her. but you really love being around her because you guys always laugh, you're writing this while listening to franky ocean and its 10 PM on a Wednesday night in June. probably the 22nd, nvm the 24th. you're really struggling with your body image and you're doing everything you can to change it. jb are still your best friends and you made a shrine for natalie. i really hope you're ok. i know its hard being alone sometimes with our stupid head. and i hope youve learned to love dad more. right now its kinda hard, the drinking doesn't help, but I hope he's learned to stop because you talked to him in some way but I know how much you hate confronting him. I hope you have someone to love you, if not thats ok, its probably hard finding someone to love you the way you want in our day and age. I don't really expect a lot just that you make HELLA MONEYYYY. maybe not because I might be a college student by then. also tell me if you're in New York with Natalie anytime soon. it might be a stretch because friendships don't last that long but she really does feel like a platonic soulmate. idk abt luna though. I hope you're still friends with her though. I hope Joshua and Luis are ok and that everyones in good health. it'd be hella beast if they were. if you need some love right now, just know that even though we may think we hate ourselves, we will always put ourself first. GO*** I HAD A STROKE WRITING THAT. yoooo if you're a skater y2k style, ill ******* love you forever, if not go **** yourself. jk....... unless... ojos. hey, I love you. forever and always. even if I hate myself right now. I will always love you. I have faith in you, whatever path you take in the next five years. if you're happy w hella hoes in da phoneeee then ***** ittttt yk. but if thats not the case, just know i will love you in every single case possible. ok bye bae, you deserve the world. right now it may seem like being 14 was so long ago but you lived it (middle finger *****) ok gn love you bae.