A letter from June 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I already sent a letter to 19 yo me but I feel like it wasn’t enough so here’s me doing it again, sorry for the harassing lol. I just want to write all that’s in my heart cause I’ve been holding it in for so long. I don’t wanna waste my teenage years, I wanna go travel the world, meet new people, go to the beach, learn how to surf, FIND TRUE LOVE, as naive and childish as it can sound.I feel like there’s something wrong with me, everyone’s meeting people and starting new relationships and I feel like no one is ever gonna love me for what I truly am. I don’t wanna have *** or that kind of ********, **** ***. I want someone who I can talk with, and go on road cars and stargaze and talk about the future, and look him in the eyes and be happy, and act like children and best friends. I just spent an hour on tiktok looking at that trend where people use the sound Paradise by Coldplay to show how they met their boyfriends and it made me feel lonelier than ever. I don’t wanna stay in France all my life, I wanna live my life to THE FULLEST. And I feel like I’m never gonna be able to experience that. I’m here spending all of my teenage years studying and stressing out about ***** like school. Please if you read this, and ur not able to reassure me that you found the right one, promise 16 yo you that ur at least gonna try and find him. The one that will truly love you. I know he’s probably not french, please tell me he’s not french lol. But if you wanna find him you gotta move your ***. It could be anything: go to a music festival, a year abroad, go to a camp I honestly don’t even know, but you have to find him. Please, do it for me. Right now I feel like studying is a waste of time, like okay you get your dream job, and then what? You settle down and it’s over? Just think about it. One day you’re just gonna die and nothing will matter anymore. So please don’t waste your life. Go on a humanitarian trip and help people, do anything but do something. Do it for the 16 yo kinda lonely you. Okay goodbye, I really hope that letter reaches you.