A letter from June 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's currently Tuesday, June 23 2020 at 10:11pm and I am now 19. Usually you don't really do much at nineteen, it's kinda the thrusday between being eightteen and twenty; So I decided to do this thing where you send in an email to your futureself because back then at the start of grade 7 in CSR, Ms. Dona did the same thing as this but the only difference was that, we didn't get the letters back. Not gonna lie, I still do remember some bits of it, like "i hope you're still friends with [insert friends who I thought were going to last but not really (ehem chloe saniel and robyn garcia)]". Whu da thunk that the old " every year a person in the friend group gets removed" was a thing (if you just laughed at that statenent, that is pretty concerning-) But earlier this morning specifically at around 1am, Elaine (Araneta) and Janpatrice (Talucod) decided to do a group call in messenger, as much as i want to finish Jacksepticeye his The last of us part 2 video, i jumped out and joined in the call. If it's anything, Elaine, Jan, Mich (Queqquegan), Ena (Guelle) and Kat (Dacquel) be the real OG's, I'd go from the moon and back for them. Turns out Elaine and Jan did a compilation of messages from the old CSR group and the iAC peeps, it was really thoughtful, it did made me wonder na kung pambawi nila yun nung nageighteen ako. I think we both know what went down that day lol. After reading all of the messages, Jan's was the most shortest but **** memorable, even though that it was just a "ey btw happy born day, am gon be late". She drew this poster-like art of me of my dp but with the pansexual pride flag and with the text at the bottom that said, "it is what it is"; it was amazing, aND SHE DREW IT BY HAND, which is also **** insane! And yes, she's an idiot but she's my favorite idiot, oop feelies? nah, we're going to be a huge HUGE mess if me and her ended up together, romantically. no offense to her though Not going to lie, being in this pandemic is weird, it's at the point where "yeah we're in this situation but it's aight". But what's going to happen next? Don't wanna hear it, i don't know if you still follow with "it"; Future's the future, worring about it is just going to lead a horrid lane of continuous thoughts. Also might take a gap year, joining in college right now is probably not worth it. Birthday's are weird, but incase you're having a bad birthday, happy birthday to us! whatever it is you're doing, do it because it makes you happy. But if you're in a conundrum where what you're doing right now is pretty **** and making you think that, "**** I ******* hate this" do it for me. I think you know why. Because sometimes I don't even know if me, back five years ago, would be happy to hear what's with me right now. Aight, I got all what I got to say, also btw I'm sorry if the spacing in this email is ****; am typing this on my phone. oop, Jack just uploaded the new part, I just gotta finish lurking around on tumblr in the gmm tag heh. But is this goodbye(?), nah that sounds sad, I think it's more of a see you soon i guess. (P.S also incase that you can't remember some of the people mentioned, I'll list them up there so you can see with what they're up to these days. But if stuff end up not really good, then **** i guess.) Take care and be fair, - Kidthearts, 2020 (yeah this you're old art handle hehe)