A letter from June 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's currently Tuesday, June 23 2020 at 10:11pm and I am now 19. Usually you don't really do much at nineteen, it's kinda the thrusday between being eightteen and twenty. But earlier this morning specifically at around 1am, Elaine and Jan decided to do a group call in messenger, as much as i want to finsh Jacksepticeye his The last of us part 2 video, i jumped out and joined in the call. If it's anything, Elaine, Jan, Mich, Ena and Kat be the real OG's, I'd go from the moon and back for them. Turns out Elaine and Jan did a compilation of messages from the old CSR group and the iAC peeps, it was really thoughtful, it did made me wonder na kung pambawi nila yun nung nageighteen ako. I think we both know what went down that day lol. After reading all of the messages, Jan's was the most shortest but **** memorable, even though that it was just a "ey btw happy born day, am gon be late". And yes, she's an idiot but she's my favorite idiot, (oop feelies? nah dude's a ticking time bomb if anything happens). Not going to lie, being in this pandemic is weird, it's at the point where "yeah we're in this situation but it's aight". But what's going to happen next? Don't wanna hear it, i don't know if you still follow with "it"; Future's the future, worring about it is just going to lead a horrid lane of continuous thoughts. Also might take a gap year, joining in college right now is probably not worth it. Birthday's are weird, but incase you're having a bad birthday, happy birthday to us! whatever it is you're doing, do it because it makes you happy. But if you're in a conundrum where what you're doing right now is pretty **** and making you think that, "**** I ******* hate this" do it for me. I think you know why. Because sometimes I don't even know if me back in 5 years would be happy to hear what's with me right now. Aight, I got all what I got to say, also btw I'm sorry if the spacing in this email is ****; am typing this on my phone. oop, Jack just uploaded the new part, I just gotta finish lurking around on tumblr in the gmm tag heh. But this goodbye(?), nah that sounds sad, I think it's more of a see you soon i guess. Take care and be fair, - Kidthearts (yeah this you're old art handle hehe)