A letter from June 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, After deleting my letter two times, I am writing to you again. How are you darling? The most important and amazing person on this planet? How are you doing? Are you smiling thinking how you wrote this letter 5 years ago? And how I might embarass you because of my state of mind? Well I'll try not to. I hope. I will ask questions first. That's what I will do so gear up. So, did you do it? Did you become that amazing hot pilot? Are you taking care of yourself? Your skin? I hope you don't look old come on. And tell me you've dated someone or you are dating someone. I hope you're not lonely and annoyed with people now. I hope you've found friends who share the same mentality and personality. I hope you've meet the people you look up to and you're passionate and driven about your day everytime. Well are you a Pilot? If yes then thats so amazing yaar!! Take 5 secs and just praise yourself. Because the Me at 18 years of age on 23 June 2020 at 7:06 pm right now is dreaming only about that all the time. Every single day. Writing this letter means I am serious now and I will lose weight and take care of myself. I am pretty serious. Well you will know if I was serious and if I did it. I hope I didn't disappoint you like I did everytime I decided to lose weight and quit. Because if I am writing a letter for you that means I am pretty serious. And I want to thank you for not giving up if I succeed. Which I will. Trust me I will. I definately will. I don't know if you are not a pilot yet and training or recently joined it or you're in job for 3-4 months, But just hang in there. I know it will be tough and stressful. But make sure to enjoy it. Just have a smile dear. Only a smile. It will work everything out. You're already there baby just a few more years of passion and work. You're freaking set. We decided to have an investment plan and savings plan for your spenditure and your second income source. I am sure you're working for it or will work for it. Money will be important girl. Are you organised with budgets and bills? Are you maintaining a diary for it? Do you have some old diary of you still? Be sure to read it I'm sure you'll realise how you looked down on stupid people and over thought about life every single time being a teenager. I hope you're normal with a few friends and having fun while doing your thing. If you're same old lonely girl who loves to observe people, You've got my biggest support. Be sure to read the books you decided to read about neuroscience and stuff during this time. Make investment your first priority and savings your second. Even if you have money and all just don't spend it all and develop a smart spenditure okay? That's how you do things. That's how you roll. Maintain a diary and set reminders and stuff. If you're struggling and working hard just hang in there. And enjoy girl!!! come on!! If you're stressed freaking leave for a while. Your happiness is the topmost priority. Take a vacations or something and come back. You deserve it. Just take a break if you can't handle stuff On a second thought, if you're not a Pilot but doing something else, its fine. As long as you're passionate about it. I hope you wake up everyday with a smile and a drive and too much passion for what you want to do and what you want to achieve. Because I am sure you are. You have made a great choice for your happiness. Don't feel guilty. You deserve all the happiness of this world. Even if you have nothing, absolutely nothing and we have failed, ITS OKAY. NO LIKE SERIOUSLY, WHO GIVES A ****. As long as you're breathing and you're living, You've always got a chance to change. I am reminding you that because I am full of hope. Go out there and do stuff. If you're some kind of procrastinator and stuff it's okay, Just forgive yourself, BUT change yourself now. You're only what, like 23-24. You've got life girl, like 95% chance. Well the 5% for if you've got a news that you're dying or stuff, kiss a hot guy first before dying okay? Because I don't know what the future will hold I have to look from every point of view for you. I hope you're just there man. I wanted to ask you if you have a car or a house and stuff. But those stuff can go to hell. Just remember if you're traveling in a most old bus with too many people but you're OKAY, you're FINE, you have clarity, that's all that matters. If you just love your life and its full of colours, that's all I want. That's all I ever wanted. For you to be out there and just live on this earth. Just that. It's small, but it's enough. If you're not okay with that and you're not experiencing anything I said above, its time to sort out your priorities. What you NEED. Don't forget that. Well however you're doing I hope You're doing fine. I really wanted to write this letter for you to remember your blessings. That's what drove me. You see, the world is a scary place. You might lose yourself all the time and won't remember yourself and what is important to you. And in a world like that it is easy to forget the blessings you've been granted. Just count them once again with me. First and foremost, I wrote this letter to remind you how you got that red tika on your forehead sometimes when you woke up to remind you that today mom prayed for you. She didn't miss a single day for you. You don't miss a single day to be happy and strong for her. She will always deserve more than a world to you. To us. Mom is one of the rarest blessings given to you. Not everyone has it. And people who have it don't appreciate it. You, please remember to call her even if its hard. I hope you guys are in touch. She would give the entire world for you to achieve your dreams. She never complained, she was always with you, weather you liked her nagging or not, she made you do your work on time. She is so strong for you, for fragile for you as well. Your one hurt will hurt her more. Care for her. Care for the most precious woman you have in your life. Not many people have someone like that. She's so amazing at the same time so easy to get fooled and annoyed. She always smiles but gets panicked so easliy. The thing which is driving me today is her. Her hardwork for me, her prayers and her support for me. Don't you dare leave her or forget all she did for you. If you did, Unnati, you definately need to sort out your priorities. Because someone like me, although inexperienced and non-talanted can say that you're wrong. I hope you don't let your pride come in between you guys. Becuase she is more than half of the thing driving me in my life. Make yourself a first priority for her. Always. No questions asked. How's Kaustubhi and Heian doing? Is she having fun in her college? and Is Heian happy in his school and going on trips? Well right now I hope covid-19 is gone and the world is back to being a little better. But still, are you checking up on them? Have you created a family savings account to give them the gifts they want? They deserve? I hope you guys talk and have fun. Don't forget to go to Europe and travel with your family like you wanted to and having an amazin dinner. You see, Unnati from 5 years, I am an idealist right now. And I am pretty sure you are a realist and pessimistic. That's what pilots are. But don't let my feeling die inside you. Do remember how you wanted to read books to make yourself smart and prepared for this world and how you wanted to always be there for your family. Only your family. I hope you're not in love before settling yourself and standing on your feet first. It's ***** give you happiness of 5 minutes not of a lifetime. In fact you don't need romance at all. Just you are enough and your family is enough for you. And i hoped by now you've realised it too. That how hard it is to find a guy that suits you. So that's why, I hope you're making yourself first to prepare yourself for the time when you want to have a relationship so that you cannot be dependant on him for anything and emotionally support him. 'Its easy for you to say' , If you're thinking that, then yes. It's easy to think and so hard to do it. Yes it is. In fact, I don't even know how its all going to be done. But I want it to happen, And if it didn't happen, then I still have a long way to go about how to live life. And if you're reading this thinking you did all of that and you're upto standards, I am so happy for you yaar. You did it. I am so proud and so happy. Even if you didn't, well, now you know what your priorities were. Start doing them one by one. I am sure you'd love to dance your worries away and ask you mum for most of the financial advice and stuff. Writing to you is making me motivated too for doing more better everyday so that you can live a bit easily. I promise to put up my habit of exercising and doing a lot of art activities to make you good at it. I will build up some skills for your benifit and change my habits so you can live happily and with a little worries. And I really wanna do that. Cut me some slack if I did not, Well you'd not have that chance but yeah whatever, I promise to make my life with discipline and habits which will help me grow and change and create new skills for you. I am ready to change myself now and I will. Will you? for the sake of us? P.S; If you're reading this letter imagining that someone else is reading it with you, well you're still a young small insecure child huh :D :P. Be like that, Its better that way. If not, thanks for growing up and getting mature. Because I am imagining right now you reading this infront of imaginary collegues and friends and laughing about it. But only you laughing about it is enought. That's it. I am finally satisfied with this letter. Have fun girl!!! because thats what we always hoped for!! Thanks for reading. Yours truly Unnati of 18 years.