A letter from June 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, today is 21 June 2020, so far the worst year of my life, this letter is dedicated to the poor soul who died today, the stray dog in front of my house, he was poisoned, i am devastated, at first when i got the news, i only shed a bit of tears, but at this time of the day, i have cried so much, i have no energy left in my body, i've always cried when i saw tik toks about dogs crying it always made me sad but now its a dog i personally knew, a dog i loved, a dog who i wasn't ready to accept his ***** yet, i knew there was a day they are gonna die but i didn't expect it to be this close, it hasn't been even a year that i moved in this neighborhood, but it has been almost three years that i have met him, when this house was still getting builded my dad used to take the food from our old house to this house just so they can eat, all the neighbors loved them and cherished them, they all fed them, only one that wanted to get rid of them, and i don't think the fact that one dog is missing and one is dead bc he was poisoned is a coincidence, now there is one dog left, he will probably try to get rid of her too, and i don't know how to prevent that i'll keep checking on her and changing her water. back to the dog the vet told us he survived but he needed to stay there for a bit, i don't know how it escalated so far, i am being judged for crying for him, but he meant a lot to me, and the fact that he was poisoned and had to be in pain bc of that is heartbreaking, i beleive he's in a better place now, in dog heaven, i am writing this with tears in my eyes, he was such a good dog, he also guarded our neighborhood, he always came to my dad asking for scratches, he was still getting familiar with our dog, i'm sad that rookie couldn't be with him before he died bc he had to go to training, i am talking to myself like a strange but don't know how different i will be after 5 years and how much i forgot, about the other dog who is missing i miss her, and my dad thinks she is dead but i don't want to jump to such conclusions, i wish i could let them know how much i love them and how much they will be missed, but im sure Allah will let them know, i would also like to punish these people who poisoned this poor doggy.