A letter from June 21st, 2020

Dear Future Me, this is Bella's live writing from the guest bedroom. I guess I decided to write this letter to find something to do, or just to free up my mind a bit. Today is June 21, 2020. We are currently in an awkward phase of quarantine. I had moving on to the 8th grade at MMS. During these boring home days I have been struggling to figure out what I want to do in the future. Its a question that has been on the back of my mind for a while. It really bothers me. What do I want to do to become a doctor, surgeon, nurse, criminal investigator,. I don't know if I will ever be smart enough or have enough education to go into these majors. I have been searching and searching. I have also been thinking about my mental, and body health. I starting to clean, and workout and eat better. I want to be able to have a clear mind with less negativity in it. I have been pretty much bored and wanting to see friends, but with everything going on it is so difficult to see anyone. I am ready to go to either grade and get over the summer. I am not interested in boys right now, I am to busy on working on my self. I have request and questions for you to answer. In the future, I need you to chase your dreams and don't let anything stop you. easier said than done I guess. Don't feel forced to look, or be like other girls and don't run around chasing dumb boys that won't mean anything in the future. I want you to have fun, but focus. Don't lose sight of your dreams and what YOU want. I have questions about what majors did you chose, what are your grades, what is your GPA, what colleges did you apply for, which ones did you get in to, did you get a scholarship or any financial help. How much money have you made, do you have abs and a nice body, have you had ***, was it good or bad, uncomfortable, have you cut or dye or hair, do you have a car what kind. I honestly don't understand the future, but I want you to remember the good days and the bad ones and get through whatever you can Word hard, remember my terrible hair and the snakes at school and corinthians stupid drama and Addison and joannes toxic relation, liking Issac, but always having feelings for a tanner. Seeing grants ***** at gabby Valentine's party and how small and bushy it was. Seeing a girl's nipple on Snapchat, the racist people. how all the boys shaved their heads. Payton ****** hair being out at the pool party and Jackson saying it was icecream, Brittany's period blood on someone shoulder during cheer in sixth grade. Running through the halls of MMS and getting lost while screaming and almost peeing your pants. The trip to jewelry island where Latina said tanner made out with her and it was sloppy and he grabbed her hair and twisted it around. Where sage cried like a ***** over a simple comment. where Andrew made me cry like a ***** and I felt so lonely and single when I should have been like a hot girl summed up in that *****. Having to use my shirts a towel because I didn't bring on. Latina and me staying up late making all noises while everyone in the cabin cried and screamed at each other over who was making the noise, or when miss martin brought her mattress in and acted like a Karen. When that random guy joined the zoomed-in underwear neon and a big ***** and it was a Livestream and the whole school was on it. Getting kicked out of the movie theater at Lukes's party when you should have chosen maames birthday party. Carson talking about a girl giving him *** and a ********, but whispering it to everyone because he is a *****. Sheridan and Keelan's dirty *** car with random tampons and pads all over the ground. Aprils disgurtigngdfeu house with no space, trash everywhere, like Maria's house which is the same with dog poop and too much trash and dirt dishes. honestly, this year was hilarious or when tanner tried looking at your **** s b asking for a hug when you worse Olivia's red top that is nice for a party. Overall remember the good times and do what you want, don't let stupid people stop you or other people. don't be afraid to take chances and risk you only live once, don't be afraid to make a mistake we are all human. Do be dumb and rude be a human and be kind that's all people need and want. Have a good enough amount of privacy and public information and don't let people blackmail you. NO NUDES OR PICS. be smart and think about your decisions and how they will affect your future and the things around you. You need to be yourself and don't change for anyone but your self. BE strong, be confident be beautiful, and don't let anyone change that. YOU are a strong, confident, smart, bubbly, beautiful, thick, curvy, curlyhead, glasses, loving, kind, sassy, witty ***** and don't let anyone tell you different PEriodtt over and out.