A letter from June 20th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today is Sunday, 21 June,2020. Its 2:38 am and you’re crying because daddy said that you will never get anywhere in life. You will always be unsuccessful and be at the bottom. You are crying because you feel worthless. You are crying because you know that he is right. You are crying because one day you will **** yourself because of the mental torture. You are crying because you know no one will ever love you. You are crying because you will never live up to anyone’s expectations. You are crying because you will always be a sad and hateful person. You are crying because you feel like you dont deserve to live. You are crying because of everything in your life that is happening. You are crying because he also once said to you that you should die because you dont have any purpose in life. You are crying because life is ****. You are crying; If you’re reading this then pat yourself at the back because you have made it. I know it was hard. I know it was tough and it might still be tough but you have made it so far so be proud of yourself. I really hope that you are working for a good fashion company now. I hope you have found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. I hope you are at least a little bit happy. If everything is still the same then you know what you can end it. Because no one deserves to be in this much pain. I know you tried everything. I know you tried to please everyone. I know you tried as hard as you ever can to do everything right. But if it didn’t work out then it’s fine it happens you know. Life is crazy like that. Life tests you. God tests you. So it’s fine I know God will understand if you decide to do it. But if everything is well then CONGRATULATIONS you have done ut. You have made it. You still have a long way to go you know. Dont stop here. Keep working hard. Keep helping people. Start loving yourself. You deserve it. You have earned it. Thank you for making it this far. I am soooo proud of you. Love, Nia (June, 2020)