A letter from June 20th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you get this. Hi Me in 5 years, wow you are 20 I’m 15. So, I’m doing this at 6:06 a.m. it’s Sunday June 20; I haven’t went to sleep yet, So first of all, some questions: Are we happy now?? Did we came out yet?? Girlfriend/boyfriend or alone?? Mafer is still our best friend?? Did we finish high school?? We entered med school?? We have a diagnosis?? (Mental health) Do we still have panic attacks?? Do we know who our father is?? All good in the family?? Everyone alive?? We still cut ourself?? I’m going to put here how we are right now so we can see all the things that have changed. I’m here, laying on the bed, I don’t remember the last time I slept well, I’m in the dark place, I’ve been here 4 years, I honestly don’t know if I’m ever gonna feel happy again, I hope You ever get to read this because that means we are alive, we didn’t **** ourself, if we aren’t happy yet well at least we didn’t gave up yet, remember we are stronger than we seem like, I make this as a promise to my self that I’m going to read this. Look all we have been through, I hope we got help, never loose your hope in yourself please, remember the light will came out lighter than ever. I’m afraid that we never get better so please promise this to me, every 5 years send a letter like this, as a proof to ourself that we got this I don’t know what to say so Bye I hope You get this Oh I almost forgot some big questions Larry is confirmed yet?? One direction came back?? We still listen to Billie, Harry, Beret, Demi, Sabrina, Niall, Lou, 1D??