A letter from June 17th, 2020

This is a letter to my future self to hype myself up. I love you! **** YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're a beautiful amazing *****. I hope you got a little more figured out, even if its a little thing like how taxes work. (i think we'll need to learn it even if we don't want to...I don't wanna be in trouble with the IRS.) Who are we now? Did you do that wild haircut yet? Because you should do it. We're scared of disappointing dad, but we can make an excuse. I really hope you're happy above anything else. We care about other people a lot, but we do need to do stuff for ourselves. Lately, I've been feeling odd. Like I want to be a man instead of a female. Which, could just be a phase. I think it would be okay to look into that a little bit more. Its how we feel, even if it is a phase. Please don't let an abusive person control our life or let us live in fear. We have been taught to feel guilty about everything, and its hard to not do that, but I think you can feel a little less guilty about taking care of yourself. Wow, I'm really tired. I was gonna make this to hype myself up, but the future is so foggy for me, I'm not sure where I'll be or even a path I want to take in life. Also, figure out who Greg is. I'll send you another letter if I meet him soon. He is constantly in my dreams for no reason and I've never physically met him. Also Matt (G) has been in my dreams lately. WTF is up with that? How's everyone doing? What are you doing with you life? No matter what, I'm proud of you! Love, Deer. Past you. Me.