A letter from June 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, The day is Sunday 14 of June 2020. I was meant to write this letter on my 13th birthday but I procrastinated I always procrastinate. The world is gone to ****. There is the black lives matter movement which I support with my whole heart. #ACAB I cry I cry a lot I think it’s from the insults. How are your parents now? The insults me all the time 24 seven telling me I’m not enough I’m not good enough I’m ugly and fat... And those words stick to me and I never forget them and I cry myself to sleep. I’m getting better though so how are you now? how are they now? how did they treat you? I guess I forgot to congratulate you it’s your 18th birthday well if you’re still alive. I hope you would be, The one thing I’m holding onto is the future I’m constantly telling myself it gets better it will be better...Is it? Is it good now? was It worth waiting for? Did the manifestations work? Are you an actress? are you a lawyer? I bloody hope you are, because there was nothing stopping you, there was nothing stopping you from working hard and achieving that. did you even try? try to work hard? or do you just sit and procrastinate like you always do... I really hope you’re happy because no matter the situation you deserve to be happy. Are you in a relationship? I mean you’re 18 so it’s quite reasonable, did you finally come out to your parents? Maybe you shouldn’t have done I mean unless they were supportive but I doubt that. So have you got a girlfriend or boyfriend? See I am writing this letter now and some thing about it makes me feel really strange I feels like a bad idea. I hope I haven’t come off too harsh. I just want the best for you, I really do I want you to be happy I want you to be successful and I want you to help others. And even if you don’t have what you wanted It’s never too late to try again it’s never too late to put the work in and try and work for it that’s a message I always told you to work hard but you never ******* did...just work hard please. How is the family? Are you still friends with the goonies? (Ayesha Annie anusha ) Are you happy? I really hope you are because after all these years, after the insults the stress and tears I hope you’re happy because you have really deserve it. How’s Huda? I know she’s going through a rough time right now, check up on her. Always check up on her. Love you ***** 😹😹😹😹😹🖕🌳🌳