A letter from June 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, if you're reading this right now i have to say i'm ******* proud at you. i know you had some tough moments but you still made it. when i'm writing this right now it's 2020 and it's pretty bad because i feel so lonely, sad, depressed and empty at the same time, and all the stuff going on right now don't make it any better. i hope you're having a great life, some loyal friends, good mental health, a more stable family and can finally be happy with what you're doing. remember that all the things you're doing should make you happy and that you only should do things YOU want. i spend so much time thinking about whats gonna happen in the future, who will still be by my side and if i'm gonna make it even when my mental health is so broken. do you remember being in school trying so hard to focus but all you can think of is if you're gonna make it till the end of the day? and now: look around you. look at all the things you have gone trough. everything happened for a reason and leaded you were you are right now. don't ever forget: who standed by your side when you fell in a deep hole, who tried everything to make you laugh even when you were grumpy, who would always talk to you when everyone else hated you. you should also never forget the memories you made on your journey to where you are. think about all the good days when you were hanging out with your friends and family, when you graduated, when you talked with people about everything and nothing. but also think about all the breakdowns, fights and more bad memories. it's been such a hard time and you still managed to get trough it. and i'm begging to look at the positive things even when you think there are none. you spend so much time thinking about all the **** people were saying who don't even know you. it has been so important to you what they were thinking and saying that you did things you hate only to make them happy. i swear to you don't you ever DARE to listen to this ************* again! they don't know you or what happened to you and they don't care, so don't waste your time on these ********! here are some questions you have to answer and tasks to do (please write it down, you gonna need it) -who is your favourite person? -where do you live? -which friends from the past are still in your life? -what changed in your family? -are you sucessful? -how do you look? -how is your relationship to your family? -are you in a relationship? -whats your favourite memories from 2020 to now? -do you know what you're feeling? -did you change to positive or negative? -what would you do different? -do you have pets? -what is your job right now? -did you travel to different countrys? -how do other people see you? -what are you gonna do in the future? -are you finally happy? -tell your loved ones what they mean to you -go on a roadtrip -see your friends and family more often -make others happy even when you're feeling bad -be youself and don't let idiots change you -do what you want -eat more different things -do more sport -meet new people -go to a festival -get a tattoo -dye your hair -travel more -do a rebuilding project -relax sometimes -have fun -decorate your room new -do some yoga and meditation -be happy -laugh more -love real i know it's some stuff to ask for but these are things i always wanted to do and how i want my future to be. you're loved and such a gift and if they don't see it, **** them. i hope i reminded you about this things and you're listening to your 14 year old you. if you want to you can go on futureme.org and do the same thing i did for you for your future you. and now be happy and lige yoir live dumbass yours, yourself :)