A letter from June 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, They say to think: "Will this matter five years from now?" You tell me, does it? Does it still matter what happened with this guy that shattered you down like your world had no meaning anymore. Like everything has a new perspective and a big part of who you were no longer exists and it never will anymore. I guess by now you can thank him for opening your eyes to broken *** people out there taking it on anybody. Egoistic people, thinking about themselves only. They get together with somebody that just wants to be with them...that's all I wanted, plus honesty and companionship. You have mopped around for ages now. I mean it's been nine months for ***** sake. Nine months you had gone insane over this and although you are finally doing "better" in certain ways it still hunts you...I mean look at where this letter is going. Anyways, does it still matter? I pray for the answer to be no. I pray for the answer to be that of a laugh and internal peace saying: "Wow how lucky am I for things to have gone exactly the way they did?" It all makes sense now. I hope you found love, because that's all you have ever really wanted. Romantic love, and I hope you are being taken care of by yourself and by this significant other; I hope you have a family of your own of some sort and maybe a pet. I hope you are the best version of yourself that you can be and that you have found forgiveness for the previous mentioned. I hope you spend more time with your mom and that you can communicate better and that my dear, you find gratitude in every single corner of your life because you have had a pretty good one overall. At the moment your window seal makes you really happy because you have decorated it to look like your inner most happiness and it makes you happy every time you look at it. It makes you thankful right this moment. You are about to go spend some time with your friend Mitesh at his place. Have some tacos, wine, talk and maybe make art or cut your hair; what ever happens it will be a great day. live in the moment, be thankful, be happy, be here in what you been given. The plan is bigger than you think. Where focus goes, energy flows. good to know. I love you.