A letter from June 10th, 2020

Dear Future Self, Today I watched the movie Before I Fall; the ending shifted my perception of life. When I tell you, I was in tears for a while. All my life I was taught to be a nice person; I am a nice person. But, have I ever impacted somebody? Have I ever helped somebody? These questions came to mind after the movie finished. In elementary school everyone was friends. But, in middle school that was living hell. I was put in terrible classes for 3 years straight. I didn't have any friends. They were more like acquaintances. There was a part of me that didn't want to grow up; I still don't want to grow up. When I arrived in high school I was scared. But, I realized this is where I belonged. I made friends, and was a social butterfly. I traveled to different friend groups and explored sports and clubs. I even decided to grow my platform. I wanted to be popular so bad. I became obsessed. I created goals, and now I'm at 3,900 something followers on Instagram. Crazy right? Well, that stuff doesn't matter. I want to make a real change. I want to impact others. I want to be nicer than nice Lexi. I stood back just watching and observing. I'm done. As I sit here reflecting, I realize what I have to do. I have to be nice, I have to reach out, I have to make a difference, I have to stand up for others who don't have a voice. I have to do all of these things. If I don't, I'll just be another bystander. I don't want to be a bystander. I don't want to witness others get hurt. I don't care what others think of me anymore. I'm done with trying to live up to society's expectations/ standards which are fake anyways. This moment on I'm changing my lifestyle for the better. I vow to impact somebody's life for the better. I want to write letters and share them. I want to hand them out and give them to people. Drop them on people's doorsteps so I can truly make a difference. I know I'm going to use my screenwriting capabilities to truly impact others on the screen and in real life. I want to thank this movie for teaching me about the deeper meaning of life. I hope you get this letter, and impact somebody's life. I truly want to thank this movie. I now understand my task and can't wait to change other's lives, as well as my own. Sincerely, Lexi L