A letter from June 8th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today (June 8, 2020) I am the exact same age as Natalie Portman was when the Phantom Menace was first released at the premiere. I am 17 years, 11 months, and 9 days old. I am writing about this because I am in the middle of a massive Star Wars obsession. In order to honor this wonderful day, I have done my best to put together a modern day Queen Amidala outfit, complete with makeup and hair. It's a very subtle homage to her, so that none one will ask me what I am doing and then think i am crazy, but I know and that is all the matters. Anyways my hair is up in a half up half down Qui Gon style, but I slept with my hair in braids so my hair is wavy. I would do something more complex but I have no idea how to do hair. Hopefully you are better at it. Then I have really natural makeup on, as I am not very big on makeup, but I do have a very faint shade of red in the distinct Queen of Naboo pattern with the top lip fully colored and only a thick line down the middle of the bottom lip. I am very elegant earrings on that are long thin earrings that dangle from my ear and on the ends one has a star and one has a moon. I believe if Padmé were alive (and real) she would like them very much. My shirt is a pale blue color with patterns of small branches with flowers in white on it. It is a half sleeve that bunches around my elbows, and it is also a crop top. I am also wearing high waisted shorts the bunch in around my waist. It is a very cute outfit. Anyways I hope you still love Star Wars and haven't faded away from in the same way you did Harry Potter. I hope you love Ahsoka Tano just as much as you do now, if not more. Also I hope that you have found your own art style, as I have not yet because I get super frustrated because you have to suck for so long before you get good. Enough about Star Wars stuff (although I could talk about it for so much longer, but I won't because I am a mature 17 years old and not a child, although I totally am) I applied for Sierra College today and will be soon registering for classes. All of my classes are going to be online sadly, due to corona. I also recently just graduated from high school, although it's not that big of a deal to me. I'm just deal to be out of high school. Although I do feel as if things are moving very fast in the world and that I am getting older way too fast. Anyways corona hasn't gotten very serious yet in the granite bay area and hopefully it won't, so it hasn't been super weird. The only thing about it was that the last quarter of school was all online and I didn't get to do a lot of senior things. That though is very beneficial for you though because hopefully you used that to your advantage in your love life and told someone that you didn't go to prom and then they threw you a prom. If you told someone that though and they didn't throw you a prom they aren't the one so don't fret. Speaking of your love life, spill have you found the one? if not that's okay we still got time. hell we have the rest of your lives to find the one, there is no need to worry about anything. If you are worried (even if you aren't do this because it's fun and go for your soul) put on some music that makes you wistful and then go outside and soak in the sun. If there is no sun where you are then go outside and feel the coldness stinging your cheeks, or the wind whipping your hair around, or even the rain soaking all of you. Just take a moment to feel everything around you. Look for the magic in everyday things. It is quite fun to do. Just get a feel for the world around you. Have you traveled anywhere new? where? tell me about it, relive those moments for me. The most recent place I have traveled is Thailand, but i'm pretty sure you got a letter from Thailand me a few years back. Do you have any tattoos? What did you decided to study in college because I still have no idea at all. Maybe politics so I can be a badass like Senator Amidala. (Star Wars occupies most of my brain these days because I have little else to do, but I really enjoy that it does). What about pets? Got any of those? if so please tell them I say hello and that I love them. Okay besides a ton of questions, here is the deep and meaningful part if this letter. How I have been feeling lately. Bam this is about to get deep and sentimental. Just gonna hop right into it. I have been feeling very lonely. This is not always a bad thing because recently I have been learning to accept that this will not last forever and that I should make the most of it. But most of the time I feel as if it is just me against the world. Well, not necessarily against the world because it is not like we are enemies but rather very distant friends. The world has everything going on for it, and I just watch from afar. Sometimes it is fascinating to watch, but it mostly makes me sad. I think it just has to do with the fact the everything is changing and will never be the same because I am growing up and that is a very scary thing to do. Everyone has to do it at some point in there lives so I know I will be okay. I don't want to leave this letter on a strange and somewhat sadden note so I shall now talk about something else. How many more marvel movies have there been. I still can't get over endgame or far from home (but those hit different). Jesus those movies ****** me up. What are your favorite movies? These are our current favorites: Moulin Rouge! (so ******* good, makes me cry every time, I want someone to love me like christian loves satine), This is Where I Leave You (so ******* sweet, plus A*** Driver), and of course About time (I don't need to say anything about this one cause you already know). Here are some other movies I really enjoy: Kingsman, Crazy, Stupid Love, No strings attached, Friends with benefits, the Hitman's Bodyguard, the big sick, The Heat, Knight and Day, The spy who dumped me, Robots (yes the animated movie) and of course all the star wars movies. I hope you still are adding more movies to this list. Anyways goodbye for now! I hope you enjoyed this letter. Love you, Ashley Lindsay of 2020 p.s. now that you finished reading this print this out so you can read it again in the future, and write another letter to our future self.