A letter from June 8th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I think about how life has changed for me in the last 5 years and I NEVER could have imagined all of this. 5 years ago I was 11. I was innocent. I was unscarred. I didn't know what trauma was. I didn't know what love was. I didn't know what it was like to move away from my best friend and end up not talking after an 8 year friendship. I didn't know what it was like to have all my hair fall out. I didn't know what it was like to have divorced parents. I didn't know what it was like to have a boyfriend. I didn't know what high school was like, actually I didn't even know what real school was like. I had no idea what my future would hold. And... I still don't. I'm terrified. 5 years from now, I'll be 21. In college. Away from everything and everyone that I know now. (because you better have moved far away. TRY NEW THINGS AND DON'T BE SCARED! anyway) I'll have a whole new life. You have a whole new life. I don't know what the future will hold, but here's this as proof that I am terrified but I am excited and I am going to be brave. Here's me saying, everything will be okay. Love, 2020 Me