A letter from June 7th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today is June 7 2020. The last year has been a ******* roller coaster Rubi. You’ve done things that you never thought you were capable of doing. You gave up your body for a few hours of affection. After your 8 year relationship ended you were so broken, lost, and clueless on what you should do next I think what hurt more wasn’t the fact that he left so easily but the routine of having someone there. Losing him didn’t hurt as much as losing him as your best friend . I spent nights wondering what I did wrong I’m starting to learn that we did nothing wrong, he was a cruel and a selfish person . Today I know we constantly battle knowing if were good enough and I aspire 5 years from now that you are able to know how valuable and precious you are and the validation of him and others does not determine your worth . I hope 5 years from today your happy and that you learn to love your self whole heartily through all your flaws . I hope you learn to embrace your time alone that you learn to rediscover yourself . 5 years from today I hope you have started your bucket list and have allowed yourself the opportunity to view the world first hand. I hope your living on your own and learning to grow up and that are able to do it . I hope in the next 5 years you give a million hugs and kisses to mom and dad that you overwhelm them with a trillion I love you’s. I hope that you do the same for your brothers and your niece and nephews . You better have your master degree by the time you get this letter too. Right now we’re scared, scared to explore the world and wondering what’s going to happen next I hope upon receiving this letter your able to overcome some of those fears . Remember everything new is always scary but don’t let that fear keep you from reaching your goals and exploring new opportunities, our life is only one and you deserve to live it to the fullest. Embrace all the pain and love because those are the things that shape us to who we become . Rubi I hope you maintain that kind hearted soul that youv always been I hope that the darkness of the world and the bitter actions of others doesn’t change you. Remember you can be that small amount of kindness that this world needs to reach at least one person . Remember it’s okay to walk away from things and people that no longer serve you , don’t ignore those red flags because you know those flags hurt more the longer you ignore them . I’m excited to see were we are in five years I know we’ll do great things, see breathtaking places and meet extraordinary people. Your a good person and I know you know that deep down.