A letter from June 8th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, how are you? i hope highschool wasn't as bad as people said it was. if it was, im sorry. people can be absolutely ******** sometimes. anyway, i hope you arent depressed anymore and not going to any mental hospitals. at this age, people say depression doesnt matter. it does. i deal with it everyday. its so hard hating something you are supposed to love. i really hope you arent back in your old habits. i want you to be better. tell the truth, dont be a horrible human. have fun, lifes to short. dont take it for granted. if someone tries to tell you how to feel, tell them they should **** off. nobody should tell you how to feel. people think they no you so well, but in reality they dont even know half of who you are. they say that they know what you are thinking, do they? i want you to treat your family right for once. stop being a ******* selfish brat that everyone calls you. stop making everyone mad for no reason. stop starting **** that you know you will regret. please dont get into an abusive/toxic relationship. you were in one once, thats what started your depression. please dont do it again. actually take care of yourself. dont sit around all day and do absolutely nothing. go do something for once. stop hiding in your room. i hope you realize your worth, but right now i dont. ive been in a tough spot for a while now. please dont be like this. i want you to be good. i want you to have a good life. i want for you to have the best time ever. get your grades up. stop being lazy and actually do something. honestly, start trying. stop bringing other people down just because you are insecure about yourself. maybe one day you will realize that you messed up and cant fix it. i hope you dont do something that will ruin everyone around you including the ones you love. it may not be a lot of people that care about you, but if one person does only one is enough. you dont need the whole world to care about you. one good can do a whole lot of good. there is going to be times where people hate on you so much to the point where u want to give up. trust me, i've been there plenty of times. just keep going. have fun. go to parties, get drunk, smoke weed, do drugs, i dont know just be a teenager. i just hope you are around to witness those fun times. please stay alive.