A letter from June 7th, 2020

Dear Me, Today is the 7th of June 2020 and I'm actually writing this kinda late at night tbh. I don't know where you will be in 5 years time but something tells me it will be on the up. I'm writing this because today was a good day, and I want to remind you about it. I'm very near the end of 2nd year in Uni and also in the middle of a pandemic. I've been living basically by myself up here with the occasional visiting Alex ya boi (I hope you're still friends he's lovely) but otherwise by myself. There have been ups and down ngl. I've had my depressed days and everything has piled up but I feel like I'm on the up now. I started working out just over a week ago - weights and the like - and I am definitely gaining muscle. It feels good to have something to show for it so soon and I am gonna do more. Not gonna lie I'm kinda enjoying it. Anyway, we have to move out of our current house at the end of this month so people have been coming back to move their stuff out and help me clean. Kat and her parents came today and this is what I want to tell you about. I've been slowly coming out to people over the last few months and just before she left in March, I told Kat that I want to transition and be called He. She was pretty accepting tho admitted that she might slip up a few times which I fully understand. Her mum was so sweet, she never once misgendered me or anything and at one point we were talking about my family and she said that my parents have two sons. I honestly wasn't expecting that and it made me so happy that she didn't once question it or see me as anything but who I am. They were only here for a few hours but it felt like so much longer. I've been having a lot of dysphoria and stuff recently but her being so kind and validating honestly made me feel amazing. I stopped feeling like Pinocchio and instead like I was actually a real guy. Also went for a bit of a photoshoot with Alex this evening because I have very few photos of me since I started looking more masculine and ****. I looked back at a few of them and I barely recognised myself. This is really starting now and it honestly feels great. I hope when you get this that you're doing well, I honestly hope you're happy and that this brings back memories of these times and make you smile. Have a good'un Me