A letter from June 7th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Right now you are not doing great, you find no motivation for school and you wish to give up life. I don't know how you will be doing when you receive this, from the state you are in now, I'm not entirely sure you will receive it at all... I hope it gets better, I hope you find something that will make you want to stick around. I hope you're studying what you wanted with them good grades. I hope you finally got your nald cat (hehe). I hope you're healthy and with the ones you love... I hope you you're happy. I'm sorry for how I treated you, I'm sorry if you are still in the same position I am now... No ons deserves this, not you, not someone you don't like, not anyone. Cause right now I don't wanna live anymore, I'm done, I'm not doing nothing in this world and I believe I have no purpose. I believe none of us has a purpose here, we're all just here to have a shot at living and if you like it, good, if you don't it's hell. Right now I believe that, none of us should exist because, if we all die someday, none of us has a purpose of being. I want to die, and your current boyfriend doesn't know that, he knows you wanted and tried some long time ago, but he doesn't know it's a current problem. If you are still with him, I hope you didn't told him that, nobody deserves to live with the burden of a loved one wanting to commit suicide. Let's face it, you've tried it enough times to realize that you can't do it yourself, so, just don't. With all being said, please, if you're still there, be happy. Sincerely, you <3