A letter from June 6th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey dude. this is crazy. okay so its june 6 2020. me and austin broke up 2 months ago. im very very sad. depressed even. i have no plans for my future. writing this weirdly makes me happy because i am hoping the next time i read this im like aw look at the idiot she was so sad! bah! an idiot. buttttt maybe ur like on the side of the road in an even worse place than i am now. that will be so awkward and embarrassing. anyway i just got my first apartment woop woop. dang i wonder who im dating rn or if im just chillin. maybe its johnmark. thatd be halarious please be dating johnmark. ummm my favorite show is rick and morty im mr meeseeks look at me!!! i feel like a 15 year old i actually wish i could talk to myself like this and my future me reply and we have a great convo bc theres no one i like talking to more than myself. but i just ate some mac n cheese and im sitting here filling out this book called how to be happy. bc i am mi se ra ble. literally hate my life and im such a jerk to all of my family all the time now. and it sucks soo bad bc i wanna be nice but i cant. cant do it. but i hope ur doing good and u look super duper cute btw i love you!!! i love you so much. please stay safe. please stay alive for me and for rj and for everyone. i need you.